Thursday, March 27, 2008

So here's part of the story...

I am getting a divorce. Yep, that's right. I said the "D" word. I am doing ok though. A lot happened when he got back from Iraq. Don't worry about me though. As soon as I can work out some kinks things are going to be just fine for ole Mare.

You know how in an old post I had said I may not be where I want to be, but I am where I am supposed to be? Well, I am. I firmly believe that God is leading me to where I am suppose to go for Him not just for me. I asked Him to show me His path. Now I ask Him the strength to follow and stay on said path. Trust me, it sure ain't easy. lol.

Through all of this I have found out who my true friends are. Those who stuck by me and stuck their necks(as well as pocketbooks) out for me. To those of you who did all of this, I don't know where I'd be without you. You have been my security blanket thru it all...and still are. I really do believe God put you in my life to be my rocks when I refused to let Him be.

Yea, I was angry with God. I'll admit it. How could He let such horrible things happen to me...to us? To my babies? But I came to the realization, thru church and lots of talks with the Heavenly Father, that we all have choices to make. God gives us the wonderful thing called "Free Will." It is up to us to make the choices whether they be right or wrong. There were lots of bad choices made, but I must move on.

Friends have always said I am a very strong person. Well, you know what? I never really saw that, but now I do. BUT I am only strong because of those who kept me up when I was falling. So to all of you I say, "thank you and may God bless you all today and thru your whole lives." God blessed me by bringing you all into my life.

6 comments:

Lisa said...

WOW - good for you. I always say you never know how strong you are until you HAVE to be strong. I knew it was in you though. I wish I saw more of you - just to give you a hug when you needed one. It's been a long time since I've seen you!! I'm glad things are getting better for you!! It's always easier when you have a peace about what your doing. I know when I got divorced, I finally got to a point where I just knew it was right and I had to deal with the choices I had made - the wrong choices - and it was all ok in the end. I wouldn't be where I am now if I hadn't gone through that. So, in the end, it all happens for a reason!!

melita said...

Mary, I am so privileged to be able to call you my friend. Even though the miles between us are quite a few, know that you continue to be in my prayers! Sending you lots of love and hugs!!!

staceyfike said...

sending you a big ole cyberhug!

Jessica said...

praying for you

Disney Scrapper said...

I know you and those girls will be just fine. They have a strong, beautiful mom. Will be thinking about you girlfriend.

HoweverAlthough said...

Mary, you were on my mind today for some reason so I decided to check your blog and see if I could catch up on your life. Whoa. Sorry I had missed this information...and I have so been there so I know some days are better than others. But you are an inspiration...such a positive force in the world. I am rooting for you and know you will be fine.